In my life, I have always felt that i was the passenger to my own car sort of speak. That the choices i made where not by my own but by the driver of said car...an auto-pilot if you will. I just want to be able to make my own decisions. So what if there is a road block in the way...go around it, or through it. i don't know...all i need now. I always second guessing my self why? Why do i do that? I don't believe in my self? Now that i am the driver...all i need is a map of the terrain at least. How do i know which turn to make? I don't like to be driven....but it almost seems that driving is way to hard.